doing well, better than

i'm in class right now, and i haven't used my iPod at all the past 2 days. Prior to that, i can say i didn't either, but only with technicalities... i was so angry at myself for caving when i did though. i pride myself on havingg disepline, control, and will power. I've determined, the reason i was struggleing so badly was not that i lacked commitment, but i really didn't want to give up my iPod. i felt it has so much good use, and it's almost become sentimental to me. i take very good care of the possessions i own; my music is important to me. anyways, i've set my mind to it and i'm going t thru the project now completely. I just focus on other things i need to do instead. Today i'll have no problem. i didn't sleep at all last nite (not even 4 a moment). Today i was up and ready for school around 6:30am. I have class from 8am-230pm, and i gotta leave immediately afterward to be at work (Wal*Mart in Cranberry) by 3:30, and i'll be at work til 11:30 at least. It takes me about half an hour to get home from school, and half an hour to get from home to work. Basically, 2nite i won't get home til after midnight, and like i said, i pulled and all nighter last nite-i'm beat! i'm so exaushted rite now, i'm almost sleeping in class... i have no doubt in my mind, i won't use my iPod 2nite! Too, i dont like having headphones on all the time. It gives me headaches and i'm sure i'm going deaf.

improvement!

sooo... today, for the first time- i can honestly say that i didn't use my iPod, not even once. i just kept myself busy with friends and hmwrk. (portfolios are almost due). i went to Zeli wit my Bst Frnd an we got chinese at wang or chang's gourmet... i cant remember the xact name. i helped her clean horse stalls in the barn, then came home and picked up my bed room. very productive day-lol

failing miserably!

hummm.... i'm beat, bushed, and tired. i'm upset that i haven't been following this assignment as religiously as i would have liked. It's really hard for me to give up my music, because in so many ways, its wut calms me down. If i were asked to give up my fone or video games, i'd have n0 problems. anyways, i'm very dissapointed with myself-i thought i have more will power. i know i can control my actions, temptation shouldn't even be a factor. I've handed over my iPod to my mom. She seen me working last minute on some of my school assignments and portfolios last minute, and she determined that my music is too much of a distraction... i was so pissed off because i always felt that the music medium had so many more pros than cons. I'm still skeptical as to how much more productive i'll become without it. And for those of you who are wondering, i procrastinated long before i ever had an iPod-now we just have a scapegoat to blaim. (which i'm not doing). i still believe that we gotta stop making up excuses and take responsibilty for our actions. i'm tryin....

1st update

so... i've given up my ipod; it was harder than i thought it would be. music is very important to me. i noticed that time seems to have slowed down. i used to listen constantly, while at work even (wal*mart). ever since i stopped, the silence seems to have surrounded me. i've been more social with co_workers and i had an interview for a supervisor position wed. i hope so badly that i get the job; however, i won't know until the end of nxt week. Thanksgiving was good, had to work. i curse the damn stores that're open 24/7. it wasnt that bad-i got to leave early. Black friday was something crazy tho! the cranberry store is constantly packed so i didnt notice a big difference. and the deli (where i usually work) was slow, so i was pulled to cashier for a few hours...and man did the time FLY! nvr a dull moment

Media Final Project

In media class, we were asked to write about our favorite medium. Now having written the paper, we must give up this media for a week's time and keep create blogs/journal entries daily. Today is my first day; I vowed to give up my iPod Nano which i love dearly. I'm not sure how well i'll focus without it. I use it constantly, at school, at work, while cleaning and doing chores... We'll see how things go, my will power is definately going to be tested!